How The Leopard Got Its Spots

So, it's been a while... a long while. Things have been pretty crazy to say the least. Well since my last update i live in springfield again, its nice even though this is a shitty town. Right now i'm at peace with my geographic decision. I'm going back to school (we'll see how that works) and i work like 25 hours a week. I originally moved back to persue my schooling but that hasnt been working as well as i hoped. I mean it's my own fault, if i try harder i could do good but im just skaing by barely. The past three months have turned into a self discovery thing. I've been trying to get myself together and not fall into rutts like i have in the past, it's sorta working. Life has just been scaring me lately. For the frist time in my life im not sure what i want to do with my life.I've been so hell bent on college and planning that i never thought... what if this shit doesnt work out what will i do? Thats the point im at now. I feel like days are going by and i have to make a deciosn right now and i have no clue what to do... very scary. I've been adressing personal issues lately and have been feeling better about things, which is very exciting. Blah